You see, I don't hide my tears. I cry when I feel like crying and laugh when I feel like laughing. I don't think it's healthy for them to think I'm a super woman. To watch me go through a painful breakup yet hide the reality of the experience. That's giving them a false sense of what it's like to be an adult and a woman. I don't want them to think that means you never hurt, struggle, or cry.
I want to mourn this loss so I can realize that often times, it's the very failure that puts us on the path to success. Because that's what this feels like right now- an epic failure. But I can't dwell on that because even though it wasn't all good it wasn't all bad either. We had some good times together and I can't help but believe we served a purpose in each other's lives (even though it wasn't what either of us thought).
Whenever my girls are playing or helping my step-dad in the yard and get hurt, he'll comfort them and always says, "It'll only hurt until it stops hurting." -My step-dad That always annoys them but makes them laugh at the same time. That's where I'm at right now. I know that the emotional pain I …
As silly as it sounds, division of household labor is something that has been a struggle. Battling the reality that as a working mom, I can't live up to the expectation of keeping a home the way my stay at home grandmother did as a homemaker. The reality is, I know what comes with running a household but I have no desire to be homemaker hence why I choose to work. I have this silly notion in my head that being in a two income household, that means that the brunt of the household labor shouldn't be on one partner. If that's the case, it's really not much different than being a single work from home mom...
I wanted to make it work at all costs. I tried everything I could. Until I knew I was holding onto the fantasy of what could have been instead of accepting the reality of what was. We went back and forth on what to do. Whether to stay or go our separate ways. But in the end it was clear, the best thing to do was to walk away.
For years there's nothing I wanted more than a true, meaningful, and deep connection with someone. A love that would stand the test of time. A partner who was as equally invested in the relationship as I was. Someone who shared my values and had a similar vision for their life. I didn't think I was …
As I sit here to write this, I can't believe how long it's been since I've written a post! I went from blogging nearly every day for 2 years to going on a hiatus. When I stepped into 2018, I knew it was going to be a powerful year full of changes. I thought the …
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From a young age, Carlotta felt like she didn't quite fit in. She was unhappy and struggled to find her place in the world growing up. Over the years, she built the courage to start making choices and living life the way she wanted not the way others thought it should look. She says that …
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I believe we're all intuitive beings. Somewhere along the way, we get convinced that it's better to value knowledge, fact, and reason. That's when we start to doubt our intuition. Intuition is that inner knowing that lacks concrete facts and evidence. It's a deep-rooted feeling. In a society that is driven by numbers, results, science, …
