True love starts with you

Love unexpectedly entered my life at a point when I was just starting to get to know myself. The inner work had just begun but I knew I was tired of playing games. I was tired of kidding myself into thinking I was more satisfied with hollow no strings attached relationships than I would be in a meaningful one. I wasn’t actively looking for a relationship but I was open to it. When it started off, I was very forthcoming with where I was in terms of not looking for anything serious. As time progressed and the relationship developed, I was more interested in it being something deeper. I was discovering who I was and he was there during the process. He accepted me without judgment or criticism. He embraced me for who I was without wanting to change me as I learned to love and embrace myself.

It’s no wonder we ended up getting married although there have been times I’ve been surprised our relationship has lasted. I’ve changed so much over the years as a result of the self-discovery, growth, and self-love I’ve cultivated. That has impacted our relationship in ways we didn’t foresee. As my self-love and self-worth reached more healthy levels, I began to treat myself differently. I believe that we teach others how to love us by the way we treat ourselves. The way I treated myself began to impact the dynamic of our relationship. It’s not that he wasn’t kind or loving.  It’s that in the beginning, I didn’t feel I deserved such an incredibly kind and thoughtful person. The love he showed me was so genuine and I was just learning how to have a healthy relationship with myself and in turn be in a healthy relationship with him.

I was just learning how to love and accept myself and how to receive love from someone else. I was just starting to explore what it was like to not only discover who I was but to express it openly and confidently. I began to cultivate my self-love and I started to realize love was a birthright. As my self-love grew over the years, I was ok with the changes that came with it because it was a process for me. But for my husband, it was results without an understanding or awareness of the process. This put strain and stress on our relationship and we faced challenges and difficulties we weren’t always sure we’d be able to overcome. It’s taken a lot of work to get to where I am within myself and where we are within our relationship. It hasn’t been easy but I’ve learned so much from it and grown stronger because of it as has our marriage.

If there’s one thing I’ve found to be true, it’s that my level of self-love is the determining factor for everything in my life. Every choice I make, relationship I have, the way I operate, and the things I accept all stem from how deeply rooted my self-love was. In many cases, it wasn’t very deep at all. I also wasn’t able to receive love from others that I didn’t cultivate for myself. Sure, it gave me a temporary boost to be desired by someone but the boost was temporary and superficial. As soon as the moment was over, the feeling of validation began to fade and often times left me feeling even worse than before. It might not be what you want to hear but for me, the only way I’ve found to feel that deep sense of love I yearned for was by learning to love and accept myself first. For me, true love didn’t happen like a fairy tale or romantic comedy. True love was cultivated within and that opened the door to receive it from another.

Sending lots of love your way!
Niki Meadows
Former seeker of love from others turned women’s worthiness coach

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8 Replies to “True love starts with you”

  1. So true. But for me, self love is a continuous process. Every day am learning to love and be kind to myself. Although I still find it shocking that most of us are kinder and more compassionate to all others but ourselves. Thanks for sharing Niki

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  2. We radiate what is inside. That’s the signal that is picked up by those around us. The higher the vibration of the signal, the more those around us shift to identify.
    Relationships can be tricky. If there’s growth, and hopefully there is a lot of it, it creates imbalances for a time, but once the partners are equal again on their frequency, the relationship is just that much better.

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    1. Navigating the growth was really tricky for us in the beginning. Especially since the growth was so deep. Over the years we’ve learned how to navigate it better. I’m grateful that he’s so accepting and embraces the growth spurts I go through and the ones I initiate. ❤

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      1. We are constantly updating, yes, perhaps even more so 30 years in. If we had more time to sit down and talk, we would utilize all of it. Life usually comes at us fairly fast, so we’ve learned to assimilate fast and swim in the flow.
        It’s good to have a mate that is flexible as mine. Sounds like you’ve scored as well. ❤ 😉

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  3. This was a really inspiring piece for me, as I have just started trying to integrate self-care and self-love into my life. I am really determined to find out who I really am, minus the influence of everyone else and to really start loving that person. Thank you for your words 🙂


    1. Thank you for taking the time to stop by and share. That’s an excellent journey you’re embarking on. You’ll discover so much about yourself and learn how to rebuild your life in the process. Wishing you all that you need to support you ❤


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